A day has gone by since I saw G. Yesterday I distracted myself with seeing friends and heading to work. I thought yesterday would be hard as I knew S was arriving for the first time. But today I've woken up and once again broken down. The thought that S had his first night in … Continue reading March 14th 2017 – puppies are for life, not just a break up!
D-Day. This is it. I've woken up with an uncomfortable feeling in the pit of my stomach, I'm nervous but also excited. It honestly feels like I'm going on a first date. With someone I already love. I slept well last night, considering I knew today was going to be huge. I've waited for this … Continue reading March 12th 2017 – The First Time I’ve Seen Him In Two Months. This Is Going To Be Emotional.
Woke up and broke down. Uncontrollable crying... The silent ugly cry. No pretty. We've all been there. Red in the face, puffy eyes, wanting to scream but nothing coming out but a squeak. It's all the same old shit, I miss him so much, I feel like I need to speak to him, I'm scared … Continue reading March 10th 2017 – This will be the first time in over a month we have spoken.
This feeling of wanting to talk to him and find out information is growing daily. I might have to bite the bullet and make contact. Maybe I need to hear it face to face that it's over and go through that pain to recover fully. I can't help but think it will help and release … Continue reading March 8th 2017 – I might have to bite the bullet and make contact.
Feeling low from the night before. I need to get out if this negivitive space and start to focus my life. I've arranged a initial driving lesson with a new instructor, as I had to stop with my old one due to having to move out if G's. I haven't driven in 3months so I'm … Continue reading March 7th 2017 – This will be the making of me.
I broke down last night. I had this overwhelming feeling of missing him, and wanting to talk to him. I have no idea what I want to say, what good going over things would bring but I actually just want a hug. I need some comfort from the person who brought all this pain. Why … Continue reading March 6th 2017 – Why do I want to run back to the one thing that’s caused all this pain?
My time in LA was just what I needed. Experiencing new places, new things, new people (People, Places and Things!) with the most amazing group of friends. I can't tell you how incredible these four individuals are. The support they've shown me over this trip has been overwhelming. That's not to say I spent the … Continue reading 24th February to 1st March – LA People, Places and Things.
Another beautiful day. We make breakfast at ours for everyone and then head to hike up to the Hollywood sign. I love doing things like this on holiday, keeping active and going on adventures. We drove to the bottom then hiked up, randomly meeting a friend we all knew from London on her way down. … Continue reading February 23rd 2017 – Sweet dreams my LA Ex.
Sun sun sun!! Such blue sky, it was gorgeous. The perfect picture of LA. LA is meant to be enjoyed and seen in the sun. It's glorious. We decided to head down to Venice Beach for brunch and then we head to Malibu for the day! It shocks me how far EVERYTHING is from one … Continue reading February 22nd 2017 – he is far distant memories at the moment that I don’t need to deal with.
Woke up to RAIN!!! FFS. It then stops and remains cloudy for the day. Breakfast with the girls in sliverlake. A spot of shopping. Hollywood stars, Chinese theatre etc ... Just like Leicester Square, tourist and dirty. Walked to west Hollywood and then to Melrose ave. More food, shopping etc. Very weirdly we went to … Continue reading February 21st 2017 – I’ve run away from heartbreak so I’m going to treat myself.